Monday, September 12, 2016

What is your identity?

Hi Folks,
I know I've shared a similar blog before, but this has been heavy on my heart this past week.  What is our identity? Who am I? When others see me, what do they see me as?
These are all legit questions.  When we start out in our adult lives we all have a vision. At least most of us do.  What do we want to be when we grow up was a common question when we were young.
My answer was always a nurse.  I fought hard through illness, the beginning of the spinal cord damage, to become a nurse.  And I truly loved being that nurse.  I was helping others. I knew I was not going to focus on being a "career nurse".  My ultimate goal was to be a wife and mother.  I even stopped working for some time to stay home and be with my son. I home-schooled him,
and my husband and I were very involved in his sports activities and scout activities when he was young.  Then came time for college.  Back to work I went.
I will refresh your memories, I also was dealing with major illness at this time. But I needed to help with college costs, etc.  But, even though I went back to work, I was still 1st a wife and Mom.
So life moves on. Our son became an adult. In the meantime, my illness became so much more severe and I had to once again stop working.  This was a very hard decision to make. I cried, telling my boss and coworkers I had to stop.  This was breaking my heart. I loved what I did as a nurse.
I then asked myself, what next.  Lord how will you use me? Can I be useful to You, Lord?  I also shared in earlier blogs about being in drama ministry. I had to give that up earlier.  What was left, Lord?
For a few years now, exactly 5, my concentration has been on being healthy. Fighting through every setback, every hurdle. Even still today, I fight hard for every victory.  Often I would ask God, how am I being useful to Him? What am I doing for the sake of the Gospel? It was back in December of 2015 when God put this blog on my heart. I thought I was hearing things. Lord, what, I am not a writer.  His response,  you don't have to be, I will tell you what to write. And He has.
I tell this because I have heard some say lately that they do not feel useful to God. They wonder how can God use them.  He can use any person He wants to for His glory. We just need to be open to that and be willing to obey.
I want to encourage you readers, you can be useful. Your life matters to God. And He will use you.
You may be thinking what if He asks me to do something I do not know how to do or do not want to do? He is not a big, mean God! He is a loving, caring God who will guide you.
I have had many people respond positively to this blog.  It has reached many countries.  Did I do this? No, God did.  How much more rewarding can something be.
Do I miss being a nurse, of course I do.  But I'm very content being used by God.
So for now readers I will leave you with those thoughts. I pray that each and everyone of you will hear your calling from God. It is the most rewarding thing you will ever do in your life.

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